Wednesday, May 24, 2017

I Needed That

Finally something positive.

Movie night was amazing. Thank you.

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Shoot For The Stars ...

... because it doesn't matter if you don't have eyes to see where you're going, or a mode of transport to get up there, let alone the fuel to propel you.

So many people see their idols and, in awe, vow to be like them.
Isn't it even the slightest bit telling that I saw my idols and immediately hated myself, vowing that I could never do what they do?

Does it help that my reasoning is, in fact, legitimate? How far does optimism take you when the real physical world has effectively unsurpassable limitations? And what do you say to those fucking happy faces that are content enough in their ignorance to live by their shitty aphorisms - and worse, share them with you, thinking they will be the ones to show you happiness?

Time heals all wounds.
Yeah, even though time itself is the entity wounding me.

The grass is always greener on the other side.
No fucking shit, those people have actual soil, and the resources to pay for a water supply and people to take care of it.

You don't need others in order to be happy.
No, you ass-clown, YOU don't need others to be happy. Twenty-seven goddamn years in my own head and body gives me far more clarity on what I need than you could ever hope.

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Fuck pets.

Everything I see is just a painful reminder of what I need, what I'm missing, what I'll never get. Who's going to scratch me behind the ears and tell me what a good girl I am? Is that really so much to ask?

Ignorance is bliss.