Ahh, the joys of thinking linearly. A leads to B leads to C. Isn't that right? ... Right?!
Step 1: sharing mutual friend's condition
Step 2: discussing level of concern
Step 3: application of comparison
Step 4: ?????
Step 5: anger / disillusionment / frustration / apathy / something-like-that
The core of worry: Does this mean that it wouldn't be so if I hadn't shared his condition?
At what point did it become a crime to be more concerned for a close friend than for a brother with a rocky history?
At what time did it become an insult to be concerned about a friend based on 1) their apparent disposition, as well as 2) many of the same issues that I have seen played out around the world?
Maybe it wasn't something I did or said. I mean, it couldn't have been me, could it? Was I not completely level-headed? I'd have noticed if I flew off the handle, right? Just like how I noticed - uh .... dammit, where are those keys? I could've sworn they were in my pocket .... um, what were we talking about?
How can one avoid retracing the same, apparently dead, path if one doesn't know where they took the wrong turn? Is the path actually dead, or just disagreeable? Did you know there is a difference between those two qualifiers?
Might this all have been avoided if I hadn't awkwardly gatecrashed the celebration all those years ago? Or if I hadn't been so stupidly oblivious with my childhood friend, when we were, y'know - children? ... but then, what would I have gained? How much might I have lost?
At what moment do the maybes and what-ifs reach a conclusion, so that I might slip into sweet, sweet oblivion? And how long do I have to wait to find out? And why am I talking almost entirely in questions?
Maybe parallel processing wouldn't be such a good idea. I'd go insane much sooner.
Step 1: sharing mutual friend's condition
Step 2: discussing level of concern
Step 3: application of comparison
Step 4: ?????
Step 5: anger / disillusionment / frustration / apathy / something-like-that
The core of worry: Does this mean that it wouldn't be so if I hadn't shared his condition?
At what point did it become a crime to be more concerned for a close friend than for a brother with a rocky history?
At what time did it become an insult to be concerned about a friend based on 1) their apparent disposition, as well as 2) many of the same issues that I have seen played out around the world?
Maybe it wasn't something I did or said. I mean, it couldn't have been me, could it? Was I not completely level-headed? I'd have noticed if I flew off the handle, right? Just like how I noticed - uh .... dammit, where are those keys? I could've sworn they were in my pocket .... um, what were we talking about?
How can one avoid retracing the same, apparently dead, path if one doesn't know where they took the wrong turn? Is the path actually dead, or just disagreeable? Did you know there is a difference between those two qualifiers?
Might this all have been avoided if I hadn't awkwardly gatecrashed the celebration all those years ago? Or if I hadn't been so stupidly oblivious with my childhood friend, when we were, y'know - children? ... but then, what would I have gained? How much might I have lost?
At what moment do the maybes and what-ifs reach a conclusion, so that I might slip into sweet, sweet oblivion? And how long do I have to wait to find out? And why am I talking almost entirely in questions?
Maybe parallel processing wouldn't be such a good idea. I'd go insane much sooner.
