I can't even read the word 'trust' right now without feeling pangs of regret for things I wasn't even responsible for.
I've never fully trusted myself, although I was always hopelessly naïve and trusting. Weird, isn't it? It's a shame. A damn shame.
A person who is good at what they do trusts themselves to do it. There is a prerequisite of experience and self-esteem that is undeniable and compelling. I've never had that. There's so many music pieces that I love and yet, even with years of practice, when I get up on stage I have yet to perform them without a single mistake.
Perhaps this is why I can never feel complete without a group. But what does it bode for me when I can't feel trust in my group?
Trust at the root of everything... a feeling I can't properly grasp.
Someone help me to learn to trust again.
I've never fully trusted myself, although I was always hopelessly naïve and trusting. Weird, isn't it? It's a shame. A damn shame.
A person who is good at what they do trusts themselves to do it. There is a prerequisite of experience and self-esteem that is undeniable and compelling. I've never had that. There's so many music pieces that I love and yet, even with years of practice, when I get up on stage I have yet to perform them without a single mistake.
Perhaps this is why I can never feel complete without a group. But what does it bode for me when I can't feel trust in my group?
Trust at the root of everything... a feeling I can't properly grasp.
Someone help me to learn to trust again.
